Yeah I'm trying to do this in a smart way, getting help for my mental health problems, gonna go to a meeting next monday (can't get to one sooner) and gonna head to the health clinic tomorrow for a chat with a doctor for starters. This is the only time I've done this seriously (even after I ended up in hospital from alcohol it only lasted a couple of days), I've said I'll never drink again thousands of times, but I know deep down I don't mean it and it goes with the hangover. Well the hangover is gone and I still want to quit for the first time. So I'm seeing it as a learning process. Just looking up a ton of helpful stuff around this site is giving me a lot more idea of how to plan stuff and recover in a smart, sustainable way.