Hi and welcome Lilli
Its not clear to me if these are people in AA that you know or people in a meeting you went to.
Maybe a different meeting could help. I'm not an AAer but people have always told me the newcomer is the most important person in the room.
I know you'll find support here too - come check out the newcomers forum:
Newcomers to Recovery - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
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