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Old 07-08-2017, 08:19 AM
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Ananda
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So ... a bit of depression the last few days ... ok ... maybe quite a bit, I'm really not sure.

I'm having health issues that make me tire easily. I'm accomplishing very little since I found out that was the cost. I don't think I'm really putting my all into it.

I'm pretty confused right now. I'm keeping some stuff going,
Post on my sober month thread daily
look for other posts to post on a few times a week
go to support group meetings available, about 3 a week
meditation - gone to **** but still there, about 4 or 5 times a week
Clean the kitchen about every 3 days, do dishes needed to cook
Cook once a week

My son has taken over gardening
Lots of stuff is not getting done, including housework and laundry.

I've been told to look at what I get done instead of what I don't get done, but right now that seems like a cop out ... instead I beat myself up.

All that said, Lots of parts of my day are full of joy. It's more that some stuff seems to be eroding underneath me.

Maybe I am just having a negative moment right now?

Maybe funks just happen?

If it is the health issue, they are hopeful to correct some of that at the end of August ... I just don't want to let my personal program to wither between now and then and a lot of my program is based on fully engaging in my daily life...

That's all ...
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