i had a **** childhood, with good bits, with an alcoholic family. i took their way of living as mine and as far as i was concerned, my childhood experiences didnt define me as the adult i became. i drank for a lot of that adulthood then managed to stop for over two years. the reason i started again? seems that my childhood did define me. just stopping wasnt enough, i needed to sort my head out and that my alcoholism is a product of it, and actually not an isolated problem.