Previously I blamed my drinking on people, places and things that I deemed triggers. But if that were true, if I eliminated those people and avoided those places and things, I'd stop drinking; and if I stopped drinking, those things wouldn't be drinking triggers anymore. If they were linked that way.
My alcoholism is its own separate issue. I relapse because I want to drink and I continue drinking because I want to continue drinking.
I still find a lot of people annoying and a lot of situations stressful. I know I don't have to drink to deal with them, but I also know that even though I have stopped drinking, and even if I stay stopped from here on out, those things are still going to stress me out and trigger negative emotions, I just won't react by drinking.
I drank because I drank. No other reason.