I'm very new to recovery (60 days tomorrow!! Yay) and my whole life I thought I drank due to my past. I have a history of abuse and trauma. Now I know I did partially drink due to this but now that I'm clear minded I ruminate less about the past? I'm not sure why or if that's even healthy. So far I know it works right now so I'm going with it. I have a specific flashback of drinking and almost dying that I'm having issues with but the "why" doesn't seem as important now. It sucked but I'm able to deal with it better. Again not sure if that's healthy or if it will come back and haunt me. Great post btw. Thank you