Originally Posted by
tripstotheedge 
Can't do the programs. 24 hours from now, I'll be the selfish person I always am. Vicious cycle. I'm so weak and scared. I only push forward for my kids.
There's lots of us here struggling at that age, and even much older. You obviously want to quit or you wouldn't be here. Read through all the threads and find some motivation...that's what I did. And don't be so hard on yourself.
I finished up day 4 today, and was able to take my kid out for do-nuts this morning instead of sleeping until noon. I know she was glad I'm not drunk today.
Stay strong and take care of you and yours.