See, THIS is the person you were meant to be. Honest, clear-headed, responsible. There aren't many active drinking alcoholics who would have been able to read these posts and see the truth and the supporting intentions behind them. Good for you.
You know. YOU KNOW that if it's your body attacking another person, that's on you, not on the alcohol. You say you've been an alcoholic for ten years...was this boyfriend around that long? Is he physically holding you down and forcing you to drink?
You have it in you to stop drinking and live a better life where you shine, not hide from your actions.
This is great place for info and support for getting sober. I hope you'll stay with us.