Raven,
In my experience w AA, the salt in the wounds is a reminder of the hell relapsing will cause. That hell is strengthening to me
Every AA meeting i have been to there is at least one women i find attractive. I work hard to keep it professional. I feel like there is an underlying curiosity about the women, for me, not the men.
I resist it, but it is there. If i was single, i bet i would look at meetings as a possible site to meet a girl friend.
That is awkward. I feel like women at meetings do seem vulnerable. Any gathering is going to spur these feelings...it is in our dna.
For me...like life...i take the good w the bad. I don't frequent the same meeting usually. I usually limit my interaction w women because i do start to think about natural things when dealing w a women, especially at close quarter, for any fair amount of time.
It might not be a....guy thing....but it is my thing.
I empathize w your need for rx drugs. I made it out w no rx drugs. It was/is hell sometimes.
Thanks.