I've been walking a bit this week trying to get back some endurance and strength in my bad leg.
It reminded me of times gone by.
I remember when I was a drinker nothing stopped me drinking.
I once walked through a tropical storm to get booze, I fell through a glass topped coffee table and still drank, I fell down a flight of stairs and had blood literally gushing out of my nose and still drank.
Like drank..
immediately. I drank when I had a fever, I drank when it was my last $20 in the world and even I drank when I had somewhere to be - like a friends wedding (I didn't make it to the wedding).
I was a
very committed drinker.
150%
To stay sober I've had to be every bit as committed to
not drinking.
I often see people saying they are weak - and I felt that way too - but really...there's a strength in all of us.
It takes a strong resolve to be that devoted to something - it's just a shame it's something like self destruction...
We just need to re-direct that strength in positive healthy ways
Why not use that drive, that stubbornness that commitment - and free the right part of yourself?
Feed the part - the good part - that wants the madness to end, and the part that wants change.
It sometimes seems like a Herculean task but however big the mountain might seem, it's the little choices we make every day that sets our ultimate result.
I promise that everyone here will get out of their recovery what they put in
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