Thanks for your replies.
I did go shopping yesterday so have food in the house at the moment.
I am in such a dark place and I am hating life at the moment.
Dee I will go to more AA meetings. Its not that I drink daily its just when I do drink I have no off switch and end up screwing my life up even more. At the moment I can't see my future getting any brighter.
The only thing that is stopping me from harming myself is my daughter who might feel guilty if something happened to me because she is not talking to me. I could never make her feel that way.