Hi and welcome L337Lady
I think most of us can identify with drinking, blacking out, and doing things we're ashamed about.
Unfortunately for us, getting drunk is not a get out of jail free card.
If you want to prove that behaviour is not you, I can;t think of a better way than staying sober from now on.
People can, and will be mad at us for things we do when drunk.
If you were violent I think thats a pretty good red flag and a call for change.
I hope you decide to give up drinking for good.
D