Thank you all for your support today. I am finally not throwing up and can keep down h20. I've spent most of the day in bed and reading on here. I let my recovery fall by the wayside and i cannot keep beating myself up. Tomorrow will be day 2. Thank you again for all of your kind words. I do a great job @ beating myself up for my choices and your encouragement meant a lot. I am a single mom with no help from their dad. I started drinking because I was overwhelmed with every thing. Large yard to care for, same with the house. I am running the kids to and from school every morning and night 5 days a week. That on top of work becomes overwhelming and I let it get to me. Drinking was a way for me to "check out" for a while. Of course everyone has their reasons for being here, that is mine. I cannot go on relapsing.