Hi BeHappy,
I was wondering what was going through your mind when you picked up again. Whatever your thoughts were, did you recognise them as AV at the time?
I went to a food and drink festival last Saturday and my AV hung heavy on me for most of the day. Even though I recognised it I still felt like giving in. What helped me was the thought that AVRT is about catching and stopping yourself in the act of changing your decision to drink. I struggled so much though that I've been wondering if I'm really commited to my Big Plan but I guess that's just AV too.