Rose,
I suffered horribly, like nothing I ever imagined getting this far.
I didn't find sr until 80 days clean. I thought I was losing my mind.
SR saved me.
AA and the Doctor w his meds are there if I can't do it w just sr.
I pray all the time, it helps me.
The suffering hardened me. It is like a scar in my mind that keeps me from seeing booze as anything other than poison now.
Stay clean.
Thanks.