I was just the same , I would wake up feeling terrible saying to myself why am I doing this to myself I'm not drinking again , but by the time I finished work I could not wait to get home and drink .
I drank every night and day if I was not at work for 20 years , I'm on day 51 now and never felt better , day 1 is difficult , just concentrate on getting through the first day , it will get easier .