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Old 06-26-2017, 06:57 PM
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and the (poor) decision to smoke and drink was completely premeditated.

that wasn't a slip or an oopsie, that was in your words a premeditated event. with a nine month sober mind, you made the choice to say YES again.

as far as what you smoked? well, just be glad you are back to a sane mind. there is some wicked stuff out there now, ok MORE wicked stuff cuz there always has been the potential of ingesting something laced with something. bottom line, it doesn't matter WHAT you smoked....it matters THAT you smoked.

still think you are missing out? was that fun? worth it?

so regarding your question.....IMHO yes you broke your sobriety. you did not lose what you have learned ABOUT sobriety, but your infrastructure that SUPPORTS recovery failed.

don't try to cultivate your addictive personality into something healthy. learn to not give into addictive tenancies. learn to be balanced, centered, stable. find healthy outlets for your interests.
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