A lawyer to me means that I'm leaving and I'm not ready for that.
I wasn't ready and by the time I was I'd wasted 20 years of my life. I stayed out of fear of change and being alone. I love being alone now but I look back and have no good memories of those years at all. I could kick myself for not getting out sooner. Am too old to start again relationship wise and too young to be by myself for the rest of my life. I fell between two stools. I hope you manage it. You only have one precious life.