Hi notgonnastoptry
sounds to me that maybe forgiving yourself need to be a focus right now. It's hard to move on when you have your hands around your own neck.
I think forgiving ourselves frees us up to accept ourselves for who we are - warts and all - and that sort of comfortableness with who we are makes social situations less of an ordeal nowadays, at least for me.
Do you think you might need some counselling to get started? I see no shame in that - it was helpful for me
Congrats on starting year 2
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