Welcome- and brave of you to share so much. I hope you find some support and good info and sharing from people who can really relate to things you describe.
Great job on 67 days - are you working a program? I know that for me, just not drinking isn't enough. I want- and have found- a way of living that is recovered. Mine is AA. I started it (finally, after years of fighting the idea) at the beginning of my sobriety; others, including my fiance for example, got sober and added AA to their program some months later. Now, my recovery is a living breathing way of life and I have tools (and a support network) to handle the ups and downs, questions and challenges, everything that make up LIFE.
You can do this- and live a peaceful, joyful life. It takes time- I was very sick when I quit so I went through pretty much everything you describe to some degree and for months. All the while, my life was still getting better because I was building sober muscles and learning a program.
Hope to see you around.