Hey Giraffegirl, you're not alone here on SR, there are many here that understand what you're going through, and many who have come through to the other side, lean on SR as much as you need!!
I drank to bottle away many emotions, to the point I didn't know who I even was anymore, and so Sobriety was a very scary and alone place, I had to find out who I was, relearn to be alright with feeling emotions and feelings again, but it takes time.
All the support tools you have available, draw on those to keep you moving forward, you can do this!!
