Feeling all of it
I just have to get it out there.
I realize that being emotionally up and down is normal during the beginning of recovery, but my husband not talking to me is making it worse. I wake up everyday alone and wishing he was there and sometimes it hurts so much I don't even feel like getting out of bed.
Everything is overwhelming and sometimes I feel like I can't handle anymore emotion. I'm used to being numb. I know that eventually you stabilize after getting sober, but I fear that I won't be able to move forward without my husband. He is my partner and I never thought we would be in this place, especially once I became sober.
I feel alone.