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Hey guys im new here i have been a smoker (pot) for most my life every day , over 30 years but i have not been smoking at all in the last week, im very bored though as my entire social life revolves around sitting with friends around a bong.
Tonight ive been arguing with myself about just getting out of the house and visiting some friends im thinking if i dont get take away, if i dont bring pot home i wont smoke all day by myself and thats the real issue but im afraid im just looking for excuses and dont know if its addiction to pot or habit or crutch

......i was not planing on 'giving up' its just happened that i have not bought any but ive messaged and deleted the messages before sending them to my mates (and dealer) numerous times .
Im really confused about this , if its possible to go out maybe even smoke but not do it alone anymore not do it all day everyday.

I'd love to hear some advice from anyone else who is in a similar position to me, ive found this week easy enough im not missing the intoxication at all but i am missing the social aspect .

Is it better to try to stop all together or would i be best trying to make it just a social thing?

Im glad to find this site where i wont be judged and maybe someone will recognise what im struggling with here, do i need to cut ties with my old life completely and try to be sober always or attempt to just cut it out during the week when im alone but still enjoy the occasional Saturday night with friends where i may have a few
Ive no issues with any other types of intoxicants ive done many other drugs over the years but have never had issues with any, i can take or leave them with ease ....with pot its like coffee though with my social group we all use it and we all use it everyday

i drink sometimes but can count the amount of times ive been drunk in the last few years on one hand, with pot though its always just been there and I really dont know if im kidding myself about being able to enjoy in moderation or not.....it helps just to actually write this down and admit my issues..........am i an addict who needs this intoxication or is it a habit like drinking coffee or smoking a ciggie after sex?

I hope you can all understand why im posting here and maybe some of you can help me figure out where i go from here.....am i taking a huge step backward if i go out and enjoy a sat night

is this an excuse to just say the problem is using alone and habitually and I just need to change my everyday behavior.

Is it an all or nothing situation.....i have not given up due to problems its caused or a bad situation or money problems i just seemed to stop, can i trust this is just a matter of control and start to treat smoko like i treat beer or other substances? or am i kidding myself here?