It was nice to hear from you, Mandosca.
I know exactly what you mean about trying to recreate that perfect good time.
I fell prey to temptation when I had about three months' sober.
The first time was nirvana.
So I quickly bought another bottle to try to recreate it--and it didn't work at all. It just made me sluggish.
So I got mad and dumped it down the sink.
I tried and failed and dumped again for another ten days.
I was so sorry that I blew my sobriety for such a ridiculous dud!
Trust me, it'll never be the same.
The AV might give you a little taste of it here and there--but it doesn't stay good for long. It always goes sour.