good on ya for seeing some of the problems!
iffen ya want to look into AA, howz about checkin out the big book of AA? give it a read,see iffen ya relate to any of it, and iffen it sound slike a good way of living for ya?
meetings are good, but its working the program and putting the principles into action in our lives that help us recover from alcoholism and have a good life.
the first 164 pages are the program( still amazes me that a book published 28 years before i was born describes me real good) and after that are personal stories.
Alcoholics Anonymous : Alcoholics Anonymous