I once felt exactly the same way you do right now. I felt it for a long time, it would leave and keep coming back. Just like I did.
I hope you stick around, this is a good place to be.
We have to make a conscious effort to find the good and better our own situations.
You deserve happiness, peace, contentment. No one can give that to you but yourself.
Stay well and know SR is always here for you.
