Hello and welcome.
I tried to quit many, many times before I was actually able to.
I mean, I tried for years. The fourth day sober was it for me, felt better, hangover gone and 'hey' I can drink again. Copious amounts, too. I am a drunk and I drank to get drunk.
Even with solemn vows, reading books on alcoholism and sheer willpower I went back to drinking and this went on for years.
It got to the point where I didn't feel good drinking and didn't feel good not drinking. I was dependent on alcohol. I had to drink.
The hangovers got worse. Fear, anxiety and remorse filled my day but still I drank.
It's been over six years now since I had a drink and at the end, I was a bad drunk drinking every waking hour. I lived like that for ten years.
You'll find lots of support here, and it is possible to quit and feel good again.
There is fun and a sober fulfilling life out there after quitting drinking.
The fun I once had drinking turned into a nightmare.
I wish you the best and it's great to have you here. You'll find lots of support here.
Best to you.