Hi and welcome
This is a place of great support - I cane here expecting I'd never find a way out of my addictions wither but the advice and support here helped me to stay sober day after day and to re-find the joy and happiness in my life I'd been missing.
I hope you'll check out the Newcomers forum - you'll find more response there
If you're feeling really low maybe giving a crisis line a call could help?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
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