I think nearly everyones had that thought, CR. (sorry for calling you CH before I had an old jazz guy, Coleman Hawkins, on the brain)
The change for me came was when the benefits of a sober life started really accruing...it made returning to old ways that much less attractive.
so...I guess the $64 question is what else have you changed besides not drinking...and what else do you think you could work on to keep you at peace and content with being in recovery?
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