I once had 3 yrs. sober. I decided I could allow myself to have 'a few' now and then. After all, hadn't I learned my lesson? I'd never get carried away again. If I found myself drinking more than the amount I planned on, I'd stop immediately. Relying on willpower was insanity. All my resolve flew out the window once I allowed it in my system again. 7 years later I came crawling in to SR, completely broken. Please be careful with your precious sober life, CR.