Originally Posted by
1stepup 
I have tom, she messaged me off a number I didn't recognise, twisted she is, that's the hard part, Ive got to get through the withdrawal and the break up- not easy man!
nope, definately not easy.
the day aftermy last drunk my (by then ex) fiance told me some of the things i had done and said during a blackout drunk, then tossed me to the curb. i crushed the woman i wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
but that was the action necessary for me to get sober. that was when the pain of getting drunk had finally exceeded reality and i went to AA.
i healed. not only that, but throughmthe steps learned a whole lot about me and how to get rid of the self hate.
it wasnt easy, but worth it.