Welcome to SR kj04, I am sorry what brings you here, but glad you made it here. This is a very interactive supportive community that can be of tremendous support to you. You mentioned you are willing to do anything and everything to get better. That attitude will help you tremendously in staying sober.
If you had this episode just last night, the wounds are still fresh, take it easy and start to formulate a game plan to get and stay sober. Sounds like you are flirting with danger while drinking. If you're afraid of dying I think now would be a good time to get very serious about recovery. Best wishes.