Thanks everyone for your support, I've been burying my head in the sand, numbing myself with alcohol but know deep down to recover from the relationship I need to get through those first tough weeks and recover. The hard part is, she's found someone else 2 weeks after we split and text saying she's happier than ever with this new guy, talk about kicking me when I'm down!
My family and friends are relieved I'm out of it but I feel so lonely and down that its a real struggle to stay sober, she smoked and offered me one in November and I'm hooked on them now too, got to the age of 36 without smoking and now I'm on about 15 a day.