You are ALWAYS welcome here. Always.
I am glad you are out of that relationship. Now, never open that door again.
Do you have a plan for not drinking? Use AVRT and and mixture of other principles. I and conscious of my recovery and I hang here almost everyday even if it is to read a bit.
You are not alone. We get what you are going through and we have most been where you are. Use NOW to turn this around.
You can do it.