Frost - you will get through it. I like to say "nothing sucks forever." I completely understand the anxiety and stress. Been there. It's great that you are trying to think of ways to make this situation work for you in positive ways. When I got my 3rd DUI, I was plunged into complete despair for a few weeks. But then, I began to feel better because I was sober for the first extended period of time in something like 10 years, so my outlook improved. I knew the legal stuff was temporary - something to be dealt with, but that if I worked hard, my sobriety would be forever. I can look back now and honestly say I'm somewhat grateful for the DUI - it make me wake up and realize that things needed to change. I'd no doubt still be drinking now if it hadn't happened, and I would not have the calm, peace, and serenity I now have in my life. So there was, indeed, a silver lining.