Welcome, Avityesboy. I and many others have tried moderation only to find it doesn't work. I have no 'off' switch when it comes to drink and thoughts of how horrible life will be the next day just fly out the window when I am deep in it. I'm already drinking-why not one more? To me it is much easier to just not drink; no worries about what days should I drink? How much? When? People who don't have problems with drink don't even ask those questions; it is unique to our experience as abusers of alcohol. I wish you all the best, and you may be that one person who can pull off moderation.