Thank you everyone for the replies its greatly appreciated , I feel so much better.
I would not have done it without these forums even though I have not posted I am always reading every ones stories on here and what they have gone through and relating it to myself.
I have wrote down all the reasons why I needed to stop and every time I am tempted to drink I read them again and again to remember how bad I actually felt .
As every day goes by the more determined I am , I do not wont to go back to day one again .
Thanks again everyone , will be posting regular now