So I decided to give it another go. My lovely wife has begun fighting her addiction which finally pushed me over the edge to really stop this time. I have not posted in quite some time, something like 5 years and I've smoked every day since failing at that attempt.
Today was day three and I lost it. I had headache all day. When I got home my palms were all sweaty, my stomach was nauseated, and I still am very shaky. So I gave in and vaporized a few bags from my Volcano. It was really no help. I still feel the same. and now I am very guilty I smoked because I know all of these are withdrawal symptoms. I need to get through them.
Also, I think what got me through the weekend was supporting my wife in her CDRP program and attend AA meeting and read the NA book. Today I was back at work in my normal routine and came home and put the game on I think my psychological addiction was bursting for it's after work high and to relax and watch the basketball game.
Back at it again tomorrow for a new Day 1
