Now that I've been sober for about 20 months maybe some of you folks can help me out. Many of you know me from when I first joined the forum and was drinking and got hurt etc...but my deep seeded problems stem from the 90's. I went 5 years without any employment and made my living on the wrong side of the tracks. Anything from drugs to stolen truckloads of Armani suits. To this day it bothers me and when I feel "weak" I get really bad thoughts because I think for the most part I am a positive person. But I've done bad in my life and I just don't know how to repair that.