I could not quit until I started having major anxiety issues.....brain damage.
This anxiety had been present for my whole life. Drinking didn't fix it, drinking dulled it. When I stopped drinking, it would come back in spades.
So, now clean and sober I deal w life. I have skills and awareness, thanks to the internet and tv.
Otherwise, I would likely have drank until I died. I would have been a mental case by the time I was 60.
Now I still obsess, but I am aware and control it. I don't mask it w booze.
I am pretty sure everyone that drinks routinely has anxiety issues waiting to manifest.
It is booze derived brain damage.
Thanks.