Context,
I'm so happy you are giving this a try. You are worth it! You are young enough that you can turn this around and have a completely new life. Don't worry yet about the life you'll create.. that will come, as long as you stop drinking. The alcohol has made your world and life shrink down.. it gets smaller and smaller the more you drink. But once you're free of it, all kinds of possibilities, and time and energy for them, will open up for you.
I'm so happy you are doing this, for yourself! You can break this cycle. Choose this new life.
Hugs to you.