he called me yesterday
He called me yesterday and it took all that I had to not pick up the phone and answer. I knew that any conversation would upset me. He would either be down on me, act like he doesn't care (which I think he doesn't), or apologize and say all the things I want to hear-- yet there would never be any action. So I didn't pick up. It's hard, because I care about him but I know I have to stay away from him.
I know that the next couple of weeks are going to be hard. I miss him, but I don't miss his drinking. I don't miss the up and downs. I don't miss seeing him clearly intoxicated, even though he will just claim he is just tried from a long day. I am sure by this time, he is on drink number 2-4.