Youre all so wonderful.
Thank you.
I know how my post sounded.
"youre trying to find some GODness- awesome!!
maybe,just maybe GOD was givin ya a little sign there where to find it."
Yeah.... LOl... There has been A LOT of that these days. Ever since becoming sober, GOD SHOTS abound every day (crazy correct intuition, and synchronicities like that one ABOUNDING).
And that also leads me to firmly believe that THIS SICKNESS has ALSO been a God-shot (a gift disguised).
Today I see clearly how I let fear get the better of me. And I am for sure cutting myself slack over it. But its really good to see it clearly this morning.
One of the tools I learned many years ago during my meditation practice is a sort of phrase to help me let go of anxiety and to bring me into the present.
The phrase is, "IN THIS MOMENT, EVERYTHING IS TOTALLY OKAY".
That phrase really helped me see that the only thing that was keeping me from peacefulness and joy was my THINKING. It wasnt real stuff. It was MY THOUGHTS ABOUT STUFF.
In reality... for example, right now:
I am sober 18 days.
I am Loved.
My rent is paid.
I have a roof over my head.
The dog needs a walk.
The trash needs to go out.
Etc... These are the things that are ACTUALLY occurring or in need of my attention RIGHT NOW.
Life is going to come to me, moment by moment, and future tripping over it all ... thats not my business.
My business is only to stay in the NOW.
And NOW is totally stable and fine and okay.
And if I take the moments like this, in THIS WAY...
All of life will unfold at that same pace.
Anyway.
Thanks guys.
Feeling better today.