Oh Herculana,
I've been thinking of you a lot. I'm so sorry you've been sick, especially in this new, vulnerable passage for you. It has to have been a rough few days. I think SimplyFree has a good point: Your emotions no doubt are all over the place right now. Try not to let these raw feelings get to you too much. Recognize your vulnerability and remind yourself of the huge changes you are going through, physically, emotionally and spiritually. It's a fragile time.
You are doing great, making yourself stronger and better able to be a good daughter to your parents and sister to your siblings, who you love so much. Don't be too hard on yourself! You will come out on the other side, stronger for yourself and for them.
Try to get some good sleep and tomorrow will be a better day.
We are here for you and cheering you on!
xoxo