Thanks for sharing, I'll share my opinion. First at day 17 my emotions were still all over the place made no sense, so don't put a lot of trust in them yet. Next, I know I couldn't stay sober alone. Somewhere you have to have an effective support system. Lastly the pride and good feeling of being sober, and living free of alcohol eventually surpasses the initial embarrassment of being an alcoholic. I have something helpful and real to share with others, I'm not going to let anyone scare me off. Giving is key in staying sober, just like having support. Go to the meeting, you won't regret it.