I used to think life was boring with kids. Now I look back on it as the best time of my life. That time when they are young flies by. I divorced my husband and the kids later chose to live with him. I ended up a total drunk over it. They now both work. Try and find a hobby such as craft you can do at night. Or a mother's group. It's much better than drinking and you won't end up messing up your life and your kid's lives. Start a gratitude list. Do anything. Remember alcohol is progressive over time.