I can't quite believe I'm posting this, but here goes.
Today marks 6 months completely sober for me
, and I am SO happy! I have been battling against this problem since I was 16 (so 9 years all in all) when I originally signed up to this forum. I've been through a few new accounts since then and countless withdrawals, and I honestly never thought I could get this far, I wasn't sure I had it in me.
In the past I tried AA, Smart, Rational Recovery.. you name it, I dabbled in . But what I don't think I had then was the sheer desire to not pick up a drink. This time something feels different. The easiest way to describe it is that I no longer feel like i CAN'T drink. Instead I feel like i don't WANT TO drink anymore. Although I've not really had any discernible cravings so far, I feel ready for them if they come, as i am conscious of how quickly things can change in my mind.
Sobriety is certainly not all rainbows and unicorns so far, but is a darn site more manageable! I feel happier than I have for years, my anxiety has lessened considerably, and I actually have a social life now.
SR is pretty much my sole support network so I'd like to say how much I appreciate everyone here, this is a truly wonderdul place. But also what I do want to say is for anyone reading who is struggling.... Just keep going! This thing is totally doable.
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