Yes it is normal to be worn out and also to be irritable. I'm glad you husband is at least trying to not drink today.
I know a lot of people who found that hanging out in the chat room here during the first 3 or 4 days was very helpful.... just other people who understand what you are going through.
I have been to treatment more than once, and I just know that if I have drank for even just a month... it is the thing that works to get me back on track.
It would be better to explore a cheaper treatment center if you can. The stress of paying off debt is a bit of a problem, but IF THAT IS THE ONE YOU NEED.... GO
You may be surprised that your family will be glad to hear that despite the lapse you are going to get back on track before it is too late.
keep posting!
