"but i decided to post here so other people see its not worth it."
if only it were that simple!
if only we learned it that way, by reading that others found it not worth it....if it worked that way, you would not be in the spot you're in.
Unfortunately, seems we not only ignore others' experiences but often even our own. don't believe it, quite. can't believe it could be so.
CNG, stick around, welcome back, see what folks are doing and finding works for them longterm and comsider doing it.