Originally Posted by
Chaplain30 
Some ppl born un lucky. All of those ur dads fault not yours.
Indeed we are born unlucky. My parents conceived me at a young age 15/16 both my parents had tough upbringings my mom had older siblings who tortured her, my dad wasn't loved as a child and was almost Abducted by a notorious Aboriginal killer along with my auntie when they were 8 years old. Dysfunctional runs hard in both my families many of my uncles on my moms side are alcoholics and have done similar things I have done we all get stupid, depressed and narcissistic. My dads side get violent and snakey and we fall into hard drugs easily. I Am looking to break the cycle I am fixing my life for my son and future i want to break the cycle of alcoholism and hopefully the road ahead I find peace within my self but it is a year since i first relaped and 6 months since i came back to the program and i am going for the home run i want to be succesfull i want to live happy but my past is haunting me i know it will soon pass and i love my friends and family i forgive them i need to forgive myself.